Dramatic Little Girls

I hate women. Better yet I hate girls. The difference may seem difficult to see sometimes but when issues between friends and lovers come up, it becomes clear who the little girls are. I'm sure you've had some experience with this.

You know, one girl has a problem with another girl friend because they don't always get along. One is an idiot or a bitch in the other's opinion. Same old story. Maybe this year I'll make a resolution to keep the hell out of these things. I'm so tired of it. I hear about it all the time and sadly it never changes. Perhaps its the people I know, I'm not sure.

I'm almost 21 years old for godsake. This got me thinking....if I'm friends with someone I will no longer participate in their childish drama. I think immaturity is a big problem right now, not just for me but alot of people I know. Its like they don't realize what they're doing or don't recognize their trivial ways. If it irritates me, then my stupidity (whenever that may happen) must bother some else too. That makes sense right?

I try to be mature about most things, though I am a kid inside--I value that part of myself, but I want the good kid to come out and NOT just the kid who wants to take her friends crayons because she sucks at drawing haha. Everyone has that inside, a good and bad side. Its a matter of letting the good out to play, and keeping the bad in its place.

I like being respected as a person. As a girl, as someone's friend. Don't we all? I hope more people will think about this as we get into our New Years resolutions this next week. Not giving a shit about other people is wrong (not caring what they think is a whole different thing), treat others as you wish to be treated. Its a saying old as time, yet many people completely ignore it.

So to all of you who don't get along: what's the problem? Is it worth not being friend over? Or torturing each other for? Are you just taking crap out on them for no reason? Did they pee in your Wheaties?

Seriously, think about it. If I don't like a girl for a legit reason and you're my friend, it doesn't mean you can't be friends with her. I see this with guys alot. They can be friends with any other guy no matter the problem. They don't make up stupid rumors or create drama because Bob is friends with Joe, and Joe hates Bob's best friend. But when this exact situation happens between a group of girls, it becomes chaotic! "I hate Ashley because Suzy does" or "Mary likes Bob and I do too, so I hate Mary" >.< I know females are territorial but come on. We can't get territorial over our friends like this anymore, its childish. We're not in 3rd grade anymore!

This has been my frustration for years. I at one point completely hung out with boys just to avoid girls' dramatic shit hole also known as friendship. Of course I kept one or two close girl friends but they weren't attached at the hip or anything. I don't like the super clingy girl friend relationships, it never ends up going very well. Guys are just easier to deal with in my opinion. No over-analyzing, no bullshit. They say it all to your face.

To put this all shortly err sum it all up. I'm tired of all this shit going between my friends. You don't like me because I'm friends with your coworker that you don't like? I don't even know why you don't like her. Wtf? Get over yourselves and fucking grow up. The end. Is that so much to ask? Nope.

Merry Christmas :] lol.

Childhood

I'm feeling nostalgic after having a conversation about PlayStation 1, original Pokemon tv shows, GameBoy Color, and other random things from my childhood. Seems so long ago in a way yet like it was yesterday. Oh how cheesy, I just rhymed. Anyways...I grew up in the 1990's, born in 1989 (last of the eighties aww). Now being 20 years old I can watch old movies that I watched as a kid and see everything I missed lol like those messed up perverted things Disney animators put in when they were bored (Little Mermaid priest has a boner fyi). I can look back and remember all the good tmes when life was way simpler. No internet in the house, no plasma tvs, no cellphones for texting, no DVRs.

Awesome things about being a kid (that make life easier)
1. You don't watch the news or understand it
2. The world is as big as your city
3. You don't have a clue what a period or sex is
4. You don't worry about money

I'm trying to think of how it might be to grow up these days and as I think of all the things on the news and in the media....it sure sounds terrible. I read the things that my 11 year old cousin posts to her Facebook. (Facebook rules state that you must be 13 years old to have a Facebook but let's throw that one out the window) She posted lyrics to the Ke$ha song "Tik Tok" yesterday. I don't know where my aunt is while she listens to music like this. I mean seriously the girl singing talks about brushing her teeth with a "bottle of Jack". Something is wrong there. If I heard that coming from my kid's room I'd take her computer or something. Every kid has an iPod, a laptop, and a tv in there room for some reason. I never had any of those thing and turned out just fine. I only had a boombox and my parent's CD collection to listen to---until I bought my first CD of my very own: N*Sync's No Strings Attached.

I know she loves Miley Cyrus (uhoh) and Taylor Swift---at least Taylor Swift is a nice girl. It makes me sad though, must be so different these days. I've heard a 6 year old use the word "fuck" before. I even had a customer at work get yelled at by her 13 year old son about her not letting him rent a rated-M game. She justified it by telling him that "war and violence isn't ok. My dad was in Vietnam and you will NOT learn that shooting people is ok"...he proceeded to call her a bitch right in front of me. Hello?!

Dear parents, your children are sponges. Please monitor what they're listening to at least HALF of the time. Also, cancel your HBO subscription. Your "baby" boy knows how to use the remote to watch dirty shows.

And then there's the internet, the whole thing. The internet is for porn! Lol not really but yea there's alot of that on here if you click on the wrong link or turn off Safe Search on Google Image Search. Who knew that naked girls had anything to do with my history homework....I didn't.

I think that we all just need to be a bit more careful about what the kids around us are seeing and hearing. All that sex and violence on tv/movies/everything isn't necessary for anyone, especially kids. I value my childhood immensely, and I'd hope that each and every other kid gets a fun, innocent time in their life to just be a kid too. No rush to grow up or become sexual. Just play outside on bikes with the neighbor kids and watch cartoons on Saturday morning. That's what every kid deserves. Don't wanna end up trying to be a kid forever like Michael Jackson, now do we? Noooooope. So here's a few songs that I used to hear on the radio all the time when I was about 6 or 7 years old....

OMC - How Bizarre

Fastball - The Way



Backstreet Boys - Larger Than Life



Britney Spears - Baby One More Time



Eiffel 65 - Blue (Da Ba Dee)

Iron Man 2

Well whatta ya know, another brand new trailer for 2010....enjoy!

Coming May 7th 2010

Tim Burton's Alice In Wonderland

Well it seems that this week is movie trailer week for me! Here's another highly anticipated film due for release in 2010! Looks more focused on the Mad Hatter from this trailer, but hey a different side of the story could be interesting. The book is supposed to be a mushroom-acid trip and scary, unlike the animated Disney version. Either way I'll probably be sitting in line at the midnight showing with Nura.

Coming to theaters March 5th 2010!

Ridley Scott's ROBIN HOOD

Coming May 14th 2010

This looks pretty damn good so far. Plus we all know that Cate Blanchett is always always always a good actress. I hope Russell Crowe can use this to get his career back. Hmm...

KROQ AAC Live Right Now!

If anyone is really into rock music, such as Muse, they're on right now at the KROQ (106.7) Almost Acoustic Christmas right now. Awesomeness. They sound great live!

Watch: http://www.kroqfs.com/acxfb/index_nofb.html

Silly Comparison on Your Part

Once in awhile someone makes a jealous comment about those of us who are in long-standing relationships. They may not see it as jealousy but it sure reads that way. This week the comment was made by a friend that we all know is NOT having sex with his girlfriend yet. "Your relationship is based on sex".....oh really? Since when do you know how many times we have sex & etc? Hmmmm? No, my relationship is definitely not based on sex. Just ask my boyfriend haha.

Anyone whose ever been in a relationship for more than a few months knows that sex does come up eventually. It either happens or it doesn't. Everyone has their reasons on why they're not having sex. But hey, those of us that are in loving committed relationships usually do at some point.

I think its absolutely ridiculous for someone to propose that their relationship is stronger than mine because they aren't having sex. Especially when their relationship is much different and younger. We're goin on almost 4 years here, and they're barely past a year. It's up to them if they choose to be intimate, and vica versa. NONE YO BUSINESS!

So to the person who said this, sorry you and your partner aren't having sex. That's your issue to cover, not mine or anyone elses. Communication, trust, and lovea are much more important than having sex. Thoughts? Questions? Concerns?

Shredded

Alert the media, Rocksie has shredded her red dog toy lol. I always think its funny how some people think that dogs are stupid. I think they're quite smart actually.

Currently Rocksie (my golden retriever) is trying to continue shredding her toy without me seeing. She stops n looks the other way whenever I ask her what she's doing. Haha and now seems to be pouting that I caught her.

It looks like it snowed on my floor. Silly doggie riped the toy's head off n ate the ears. Random but really amusing. She does this every Christmas. One toy is sacrificed via her shredding it, and the nshe gets a new one that she treats like her child for the new few months.

True Blood

True Blood (Season 1 & 2) 4.5/5

So the vampire story genre is pretty popular this year. First with the rise of Twilight and then with HBO's True Blood. Both follow a romantic story-line yet I gotta say, True Blood is much better. Not only are these authentic vampires, but there's alot more of a story than Twilight.
The True Blood series takes places in Louisiana in an alternative world compared to ours. The vampires have "come out of the coffin" and revealed themselves to the world. Some are happy to see this, while others hate it. I love the variety of characters, human and vampire. Sookie Stackhouse is a waitress at Merlot's (a local Bon Temps restaurant and bar) where her boss loves her and the locals thoughts are heard too loudly....she's a telepath, though only her closest friends know this. her boss, Sam Merlot also is more than human, but he's no vampire.

A serial killer plagues the small town of Bon Temps, mainly "fang-bangers" are targeted by the killer. In the second season, a Maenad comes to town and starts making shit hit the fan. Yes, it gets weirder and weirder. Meanwhile there's a crazy Jesus camp of people that are all for staking vampires because they are the spawn of Satan. Crazy people, it makes me laugh to see such delusional religious people.

There's alot of nudity, senseless in my opinion but hey its HBO so they can do it if they want. Language, nudity, drugs---awesome, its more real than a lame-ass story where nobody ever dies or has sex or anything that happens in real life. There's also no awkward angst and stupid "I have to leave you......its too dangerous". Sorry Twilight, but you also have shitty actors compared to this show. I like that there's more in-depth stories and exploration of the vampire world than "h these are the Cullens and nobody can ever know that they're vampires, PS: there's shape-shifters too". In the world of True Blood there's all kinds of mythical creatures which makes for more choices in story-lines as well as characters. It doesn't get boring, ever.

Overall, I like it. in fact I just finished season 2 at 4AM last night. Me and my brother sat there and watched the show for probably 5 - 6 hours straight. Addicting, very addicting. Our favorite character so far is Eric Northman, a vampire who runs the Fangtasia vampire bar. This series is not for anyone under 18 years old according to its rating, and I'd stick with that if you wanna watch this with kids or your parents. Sex scenes aren't like in the movies, everyone shows their bare ass or chest at some point in the show. Kinda like porn, eww. If you're uncomfortable with nudity or gore, just don't watch. That's really all I gotta say, I just have to wait for the 3rd season to be on the internet because I don't have HBO :[

What's another show that I should watch? I've heard Dexter is pretty good. Thoughts? Responses? Hmm?

Photoshoot

Hey guys, check out these awesome pictures of my brother Ryon :] They're on Jeff Wallace Photography's blog! All credit to him of course, I love these!

http://jeffwallacephotography.blogspot.com/2009/12/ryon-beachner.html

Pictures were taken out in Codo de Caza and a few other places. Finally my family has good pictures (fuckin awesome pictures) of my brother.You might wonder why he's dressed funny---Yes, he does race go karts. A few of the pictures include his helmet and driving suit. Enjoy!

Sunday the 6th

Hello again, it's me. Who else would it be? That was a stupid question lol. Well this is a really informal-type blogity blog for the day. Just thought I'd let everyone know that I've got a few movie reviews on the way.

Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang
Harry Potter & the Half-Blood Prince
Public Enemies
Lucky Number Slevin

Because its "CSR appreciation week" at Blockbuster for the next 2 weeks, I can get 10 free rentals instead of just 5 free rentals. So I may end up renting and reviewing alot in the next few weeks. Then again I also have end of semester junk and finals to deal with at school. Good luck if you're facing final exams just like me.

It's almost Christmas! I still have no idea what I want other than bubble bath (I ran out a few days ago) and maybe a new Wii game. I need suggestions please! What are you asking for?

PS: I'm starting to watch True Blood. Let's see what all the buzz is about!

A State of Trance 2009

Hello fellow bloggers and music lovers, just thought I'd shine a light on some new music I've gotten a hold of! I love most genres of music but seem to have an affinity for electronic. No, Lady GaGa doesn't count (that's pop, no offense to GaGa she's great) Maybe because of my rave phase? I'm not sure, its calming to me---but anyways....

I've just downloaded Armin Van Buuren's A State of Trance 2009 and so far its great. I especially like "The Fractal Universe" by Matt Zo. You've probably never heard of Zo---why not? He's a 19 year old DJ and music producer from England. It's crazy to think that this so young and talented. Just take a read of his profile/biography on last.fm: click here yo.

Like most of my favorite trance artists, Zo's music was introduced to me by my good friend Ben. As we drove home from Newport Beach last weekend in his Scion tC (I was excited to drive it for the first time) I remarked, "I feel like I should be driving a spaceship through a galaxy somewhere".

For more information and track listings on this album (it's 2 CDs) go to: Yah, Armin is Dutch. Don't lie, you use Wikipedia as a valid information source too.

Victoria Secret Fashion Show (2009)

I'm watching the Victoria Secret Fashion Show, feeling fat because I'm fucking bloated from PMS. It's amazing, you should try it sometime....sarcasm of course. I can't help but feel like going to the gym after watching this show. Too bad I have no time for the gym since I have school and work and need sleep.

If I had hours and hours on end to devote to going to work out every day I'm sure that I could look like one of the models. Well except I'm only 5'4 so that's a problem. But hey if I was in crazy-job shape like Miranda Kerr or Marissa Miller, I'd be workin out at the gym in my damn underwear.

There was no Adriana Lima aka "omg I'm taking a shit while I take this picture"-face. My brother calls her that because apparently she looks consipated in all her photos according to him. She just had a baby a few weeks ago. Speaking of babies....

Did anyone notice that Heidi Klum just had a baby about a month ago? Yeah, she looks like she's never had 4 kids before haha. I gotta say that she is a pretty good role model for girls. Not disgustingly skinny or trampy. She's got Seal and her kids, plus this awesome career. She got lucky, that's for sure. I hope I look half as good as she does after having kids, jeebus!

PS: Dear Black Eyed Peas, my mom changed the channel during your performances because you sound awful live, so I didn't get to see more than 30 seconds of Will.I.Am. on the keytar, "singing" badly. Oh and Fergie please leave the sexy outfits to the VS models. I don't know what you're wearing but its big and green.

Plan B

Everyday there's advertisements on tv. Regular day to day things like cereals, Target commercials, and every other restaurant in town. But once in awhile there's a few that come on that seriously bother me. Recently I've seen the commercial for the PLAN B pill aired.

Plan B's website: http://www.planbonestep.com/
*only sold to 17 or older over the counter
*Only effective when taken within 72 hours (3 days) of sex
*Mild side-effects similar to a period

I understand that there are accidental pregnancies in our country all the time. I know quite a few people that are "oops" babies (but they were all from marriages, not one night stands). Also this week I'm writing an essay for my History class on 1970's womens' rights movement. How convenient.

In the 1960s and 1070s the idea of letting women use birth control was "insane"! It was ridiculous! Why should a women turn down a pregnancy? Its Gods purpose for women to give us children, preventing that role from occurring whenever it...occurs, would be offensive. This is what the older generation thought, but the young women saw it as liberating. A way to choose when a child should or shouldn't come into their life. It gave way for many women to have more time to dedicate to an extended education or a career. Sure this was great, but it was still seen as provocative. The traditional position of the woman was in the kitchen, in the home. As some say it, "get in the kitchen and make me a sandwich!"

But this commercial that plays multiple times a day is something entirely different, or is it? It similar in how it gives women who have made an "oops", a way out. It also states in the ad, "this is not a form of birth control". Unfortunately there are people out there that use abortions as their form of birth control. It's sad but it happens....this often leaves them with infertility problems in the future when they wish to have children. Perhaps women will see that as a reason to not get multiple abortions and just be responsible for the sex that they have. PLAN B is simply a safety net for those who need it. I hope that if somebody is out there having sex that they are responsible enough to protect themselves from anything unwanted or unexpected.

This brings up something that I firmly believe: If you're not smart enough to get on birth control and use condoms, then you shouldn't be having sex with anyone. You could subject your partner to an unplanned child or venereal disease. A friend remarked via Twitter yesterday, "A diamond is forever, so is herpes". You gotta be responsible for yourself!

PLAN B will probably prevent alot of accidental pregnancies, but that doesn't mean go crazy. Women of the 60's and 70's saw the pill as a way to push back having kids so they could have a fuller and more complete life outside of being a mother. There's plenty more to life than just staying at home and raising your kids (though I do aspire to be a stay-at-home mom someday, I want my degree first). The women of the past saw this as empowering, it was their way to live for their own self-development.

What do you think of all the new PLAN B advertisements? Its been around for awhile but they're just now advertising it. Would you use it? Or will you just stick to using regular birth control and condoms?

All I Want For Christmas

Ohh the holidays, such a wonderful time of year. Time for putting up the Christmas tree and celebrating togetherness and family, love and be grateful. But wait a second, what are you getting everyone for Christmas this year? Some toys, a new car maybe, or maybe new clothes for your kids.

This Christmas for my family is gunna be extra tight. Mom's paycheck is now divided up over 12 months instead of 9 months by the school district, and dad doesn't usually get paid on time. Of course I do have a job, which means I get to buy presents with my own money, no assistance from the parents like when I was younger. On top of all of this, our economy isn't the greatest. Most people won't be going out and spending extravagant amounts of money this year, or at least that's my prediction.

The whole money issue adds some stress to getting gifts for one another but it shouldn't be too bad, I hope. Nobody seems to have much of a list this year anyways. Every year I write up a list with stars next to the presents I prefer (I hate faking happiness on Christmas for gifts I don't like at all), the prices, and what store to find them in.

I think this year I'm gunna stick to asking for things that I NEED. I don't really see anything amazing out there that I want so bad that I'd put a financial burden on someone for. I have a camera, I have a laptop, my car runs fine right now. So maybe it's time for everyone to stop buying a shitload of crap nobody wants and think of things that people NEED. Or better yet, use.

You can't always get what you want, so the song goes. But its Christmas and if you don't get your child that train set they've been screaming about for a month you'll go deaf and grandpa will turn his hearing-aid off. Ok, so get them the train set, but get them other things also that aren't a waste. Kids don't NEED a million toys.

"But my little Suzy has to have the latest and greatest toys!"...uhh have you ever seen a kid play with a mound of toys? There's one or two favorites and the rest just sit and collect dust. My boyfriend's younger brother has two or three train sets and I havent seen him play with them for the past three months, I'd be donating them to the Goodwill by now.

But hey, he's not my kid. My kids will probably have fewer toys, I hate spoiled little kids. And sadly they're really common here in Orange County. I got to watch a kid about three or four years old, scream and cry over not getting the pack of gum he picked up at Blockbuster where I work. Jesus Christ people! Teach your kids what no means or you'll regret it down the road when they decide that you're not worth listening to when you tell them "no, you can't go...."

So I'm going to aim to get each person on my shopping list one thing that they need, and if I don't know what they need then I'll get something that they will use alot. Because why buy a bunch of stuff that's just going to sit there? That's the stuff your friends and family end up return.

Don't get me wrong, happy kids on Christmas is the best. But there's a big difference between a happy child and a spoiled one. Christmas is a time for being with your family, love, and for some the birth of Jesus. There's even Kwanzaa (I don't know, nor have I ever met someone who celebrates this holiday) and Hanukkah. Each of these is about love, not buying presents---unless you're falling for the materialistic crock that our consumer society advertises during the holiday season. Keep it simple, its the thought that counts. Not the price-tag.

[the picture at the top was found via StumbleUpon, its not my work but I love it so all credit to the artist]

Movie Reviews - 11/25

Bruno 3/5
Ok, first off---before watching this movie or even considering renting/buying it please ask yourself a few questions:

1) Am I ok with homosexual jokes?
2) Am I ok with dildos? Yes dildos.
3) AM i ok with male frontal nudity?

If you answered no to ANY of those questions, this movie is not for you so avoid it. I only tell you to consider these things before viewing such a movie. I'm not going to tell you that Sasha Baron Cohen sucks or anything, he's actually quite brilliant (aha I sound English). But I didn't enjoy this movie like I did when I saw Borat. Both seem to be shock-humor, but hey there's all kinds of comedies. That's all I gotta say about it really, without giving away what happens. Personally I don't like alot of nudity in movies (and yea that means I think porn is disgusting too) so I was disinterested and kinda grossed out.

IMDb - http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0889583/

Marley & Me 4.2/5
I love my dog and this movie made me cry....like the most I've ever cried in a movie. Evan had to go get me tissues because I'd cried all my make-up off. Anyone that's ever had a dog, even a naughty pet that makes huge messes and breaks things, will love this movie. It basically the story of a couple that get married and decide to get a puppy. They name the new puppy, Marley. And it turns out this puppy is "the world's worst dog". There's alot of laughs but it also gets really emotional once the dog gets older. I had to go hug my doggie afterwards. Definitely a good movie.

IMDb - http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0822832/

New Moon 3.6/5
Alright, I admitt I didn't go to the theater to see the newest Twilight Saga movie, honestly I do'nt like spending +$10 on a movie that may suck. So I went the safe route and watched it online with my friend Cheryl. I was glad to see that it stayed close to the book, there was only one part where they changed a little piece of the story. But that part was pretty insignificant. Continuing, do you like Taylor Lautner with his shirt off in the rain? No way, everyone does haha. Oh and yeaa there's a scene with a shirtless Edward (Robert Pattinson) as well for the foaming-at-the-mouth R-Pattz fans.
It wasn't a bad movie, in fact it was ALOT better than the original Twilight movie--which was one of the worst movies I've seen in my life. The actors all did a decent job, though there were a few slo-mo shots of the guys that I found really lame. The director is new to the series, apparently the previous director was crap---good move guys. This isn't anything Oscar-worthy but I'd recommend the movie---but whether its worth +$10 to see in theaters is up to you!

IMDb - http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1259571/

Obsessed 3.5/5
If you're in the mood for something a little creepy, this is your movie. If you love chick fights, this is your movie. The story goes that a new temp (Ali Larter) starts working at this man's office where she quickly becomes a sexual stalker. Unbeknownst to his wife (Beyonce), the temp keeps showing up again and again to further mess with her husband. "Crazbitch" would be the perfect term for the temp, seriously she's off her rocker n needs to be in a mental hospital. The fight scene between Ali Larter and Beyonce was awesome. So if you wanna watch a movie and yell at the screen for an hour and a half "Breathe bitch!", pick up Obsessed.

IMDb - http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1198138/

Wow, really?

"Nobody wants a defect for a son or a daughter....I guess that's how gays are these days"

Umm is this the 70's?! No, the whole "mental illness" = gay is no longer an issue. It's been ruled out. Don't ever compare the handicapped to homosexuality. You might as well start comparing yourself to someone in a wheel-chair now. I'm offended. No, people with special needs are on a whole different level. Comparing them is just wrong. Sexuality is more choice-oriented than being born with a serious handicap.

UC Tuition Increase

I thought that this video/PSA* was perfect to sum up the current problem in our educational system. College is becoming unaffordable, not that it was "affordable" before--but more so than ever before.



I worry that my brother and everyone else his age (he graduates from high school this year) are not going to be able to get into, or let alone PAY for a college education. I don't know what he's wanting to major in or what his intended-career path is, but college needs to be an option.

I'm still in community college, and I worry that I won't even be able to transfer half the time because of Spring semesters being closed to everyone. If I miss out on one class then I have to wait an entire year longer to re-apply to the CSU system.

I won't be going to a UC school, but I feel bad that everyone in the UC system is now getting wallet-raped with tuition. Next year it will cost my friend at UCI: $10,000 for the year. I mean, sure that's great compared to going somewhere like Chapman (private university) where it's $30-45,000 per year. But if nobody can afford to go to college then nobody will. Or the community college system will be flooded even more than it is now. My school had a 30% enrollment rise this year. Hmm I wonder why everyone suddenly is going to community college? It's a great deal for your money. But overall, our education system is screwed up, can somebody please fix it already? Jebus!

Protests @ UC Davis - http://www.news10.net/news/local/story.aspx?storyid=70635&provider=top
Protests @ UCLA - http://www.dailynews.com/news/ci_13817925
$10k Per Year - http://blogs.laweekly.com/ladaily/community/uc-tuition-hits-the-roof-10k-a/

*video done by UC students, FilmEd alumni from Foothill Ranch

Movie Review - 11/17

Adventureland 2.3/5
I'm no Kristen Stewert junkie-fan but I had to rent this one to see if her acting ability was any different from Twilight. Of course I was disappointed and yes, she acts the exact same. THe only difference between her character "Emm" and Bella from Twilight is that Bella is a virgin in love with a vampire, while "Emm" smokes a shit ton of pot and gets to be Ryan Renoylds make-out partner. Overall, the movie was ok but it seemed long and I was uninterested halfway through. "Do you have weed?" is probably asked 20 times throughout the movie and this is how all the characters meet and socialize if they aren't already at a bar or house party. By the looks of this movie, being a grad student in the upper East Coast is like hell on a stick.

IMDb: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1091722/

The Brothers Bloom 3.9/5
So here we have Mark Ruffalo and Adrien Brody as two brothers, con men all their lives. Brody's character, "Bloom" wants out of the con business because he wants an "unwritten life". His brother convinces him to do one last con via a rich heiress from New Jersey, Penelope (Rachel Weisz). All of the characters are great, good story, and all together a good movie. It wasn't widely publicized like most movies these days but The Brothers Bloom deserves to be watched by anyone who likes a twisting con. Oh and if you would like to see someone repeatedly crash their Lamborgini into walls.

IMDb: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0844286/

Monsters VS Aliens 2.5/5
The movie was great if you're looking for something fun ot watch with your 4 - 6 year old sibling or cousin, but its not nearly as enjoyable for adults. Many pixar-animated movies aim for a wider audience but Monsters VS Aliens keeps it simple and innocent for the kids in our life. No awkward sexual double-meanings or one liners, no scary images or fighting that could give a young child nightmares. Originally this movie was 3D while in theaters, if you can manage to get some 3D glasses it would make he movie alot better in my opinion. it lost my interest about three fourths of the way through because I found myself asking what the story line was, but hey its for kids. There doesn't need to be much more than "monsters" joking around and saving the planet from aliens.

IMDb: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0892782/

The Ugly Truth 3.7/5
Typical romantic-comedy story-line, predictable but veyr enjoyable. Katherine Heigl and Gerard Butler are great together, and both very good-looking. So you can watch this with your boyfriend/girlfriend/friends---but not with your parents. Sitting by your parents while Heigl accidently wears vibrating panties to a meeting would be super awkward. THe movie as a whole is alot of fun, there's some great innuendoes in there. some of them are pretty dirty but it adds to the "ugly truth" that Butler's character tries to prove. Its almost like Battle of the Sexes but everyone wins in the end.

IMDb: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1142988/

UP 4.7/5
You'll laugh then you'll cry in this Pixar classic about an old man trying to escape getting taken to a retirement home and fulfill the dream of his wife. I loved this movie, such an emotional movie. I have to say that if your child is still a toddler and may be scared of dogs---don't watch it til they get older. There's just a few parts where the guard dogs chase Mr. Fredrickson and 'the small mailman" as the dogs call him. The two comedic relief characters are the best. Doug the golden retriever was a spitting image of my dog (though she's female), plus "Kevin" the giant exotic bird from South America was hilarious throughout.

IMDb: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1049413/

No Home For the Heart

"To us, family means putting your arms around each other and being there" ~Barbara Bush

I don't understand. I just don't, and I probably never will. Parenting is supposed to be the hardest job in the world, but still. Being a parent means that you have to take care of your children. This doesn't end at a certain age or cut-off point. And then there's pushing a teenager out of the nest, but this.....this set me off. Once they come out that birth canal, they are here forever. YOUR responsibility, forever.

It's come to my attention that one of my oldest friends has been told to vacate the house and head out to grandma's or some other relative's house, anywhere but "home". This came about via email, not in person--makes it alot worse in my opinion....at least when you're fired from a company they tell you in person. But no, let's just send an email and hopefully shit doesn't hit the fan. Greaaat. Pardon my French, but what the fuck is wrong with people these days? It's your kid, your family. Family should be at the top of your list in the relationship department. But for some it's like they think family members can be wished away because they seem inconvenient or bothersome. This is ridiculous. If I had a kid with a few problems I wouldn't kick them out, they should be with their family and parents where they can be supported....which brings me to quite a big point.

If your family doesn't support you, then it probably doesn't seem like home. Home is where the heart is, and the heart needs love and support. So where will her heart be? Far away from what was once called "home"? Far away from the friends that care about her? I guess so.

A few of us have talked about kidnapping her to see her before she goes. Nobody is ok with the whole situation. Honestly I'd like to punch a wall, but Kevin did that last year and broke his hand SO I will not be doing that tonight.

Upset. Stupid people. "Life isn't fair"---this is a false statement. Life tends to be fair, but this is only when a full effort is given into all you do. Including parenting, this is a part of life where giving up is not ok. It is not an option or you have simply failed. And for that I feel sorry for you, I pity you. Because I know that this isn't right and know you have given up.

"Blood's thicker than water, and when one's in trouble
Best to seek out a relative's open arms."
~Author Unknown

Bucket List

I'm sure I'll add more to this list later, but that's what I can think of right now. How about you? What do you wanna do before you kick the bucket?

1) Go to Europe
2) Wine-tasting in a vineyard
3) See a glacier in person
4) Learn to ride a motorcycle
5) Walk on the Great Wall of China
6) See the pyramids in Egypt
7) Buy a house
8) Watch the aurora borialis
9) Float around in an antigravity chamber
10) Graduate college
11) Swim with dolphins
12) Drive across the USA
13) Ride on an elephant
14) Steal my neighbor's gnomes
15) Be in the audience of The Price Is Right

Party Theme: Idea Post #1

I want to have a Tom Cruise Risky Business party. Where everyone is required to come dressed in the white shirt and underwear.

Girls and guys do it for Halloween all the time, but I want a non-Halloween dress up party like this. For some reason I think it would be hilarious. Oh and there would be lots of dancing, not just standing around talking like normal. So, in excense--a Tom Cruise Risky Business dance party.

Thoughts, @beawarriorqueen?

Halloween 2009

This Halloween was a success, but it didn't come without some complications as usual. I was invited to 3 different parties.

1. Tommy was throwing a Halloween party in Silverado canyon.
2. Ashley was hosting a party at her house with her husband and other swim coaches.
3. Phil and his girlfriend were hosting a party at his apartment.

Which one to go to? Well the first one that came to my knowledge was Tommy's canyon party. So I assumed that hey we'll all go. Cheryl and Reenie, along with the rest of the In N Out of Foothill Ranch crew was going. Breanna and Anthony were going too, and I havent seen either of them since July. I wanted to see my friends! But Evan comes over to make dinner the next day and tells me that we're going to Ashley's party on the 31st.

"So we'll go to both?", I said. Evan replied, "I'm staying at Coach's house the whole time, I can't leave. But you can go to the canyon party too if you want, but I want you to stay here with me." Oh really? Is this like one of those trick situations or mind tricks that bitch girlfriends always say to their partners? It sounded like it but I know its not like that. I chuckled a bit about it though. I hate having to disappoint anyone by telling them "no, sorry I won't be at the party". And there was no way to go to Phil's party since I was invited very last minute in comparison to the previous 2 invites. So we ended up staying at Ashley's on the night of the 31st. There wasn't any point in risking going to the canyon party since there's check points all over the roads and Reenie's ex boyfriend might show up at the canyon party. No extra drama this Halloween, please.
So why do I say this year was a success? 3 things:

1. I got to dance with my boyfriend and Cheryl to the music I picked to play at the party.
2. No NorCal cop cars everywhere.
3. No crying on a curb, being comforted by Ben.

Mostly the last 2 things made it better. The party was pretty low key and laid-back. Last year in Sonoma, CA was fun but ended abruptly. This year in Irvine (surprisingly there were no cops) there was drinks, dancing, hookah and friends. I got to spend time with the Yotters and the "Hoffs" (they aren't actually married but we still call them that), Cheryl and I got to dance like crazy people. Waca waca shots. The boys enjoyed some beer pong and poker, while a few of us girls talked in the hookah lounge/tent. Even Ian got to dance hahaha! Pacman ghosts at the door, and pirates who show up after the party ends.

Here's some pictures from the night....

Flag fooball, the Germans, Dr. Acula & his Nurse, Ian in a freaky mask, Baseball "Player", and Wilma Flinstone

Mandie and Jess brought some friends from Concordia

Shea and Brenna came as "Mr. & Mrs. Smith"

Joe the pirate stopped by at 2am

My BayBay<3

The next holiday that requires major scheduling is Thanksgiving. Last year me and Evan went to 2 Thanksgiving-family gatherings, the year before we went to 3 then felt like we were in a turkey coma. With his divorced parents it's like having 2 families to go see just for him and then my regular/non-divorced family just has 1 Thanksgiving to attend. Hopefully we can avoid getting stuck with a Mira Mesa/San Diego drive to a Costa Mesa/Fountain Valley drive again! Time will tell.

A Letter: Rushing In

Dear 20 year old girls,

Yes, I just called you girls. You are not women yet though you may think you are. A woman is the adult version of a girl. A woman has a job to support herself or a partner/parents to aid her. She is old enough to make her own choices, and rent a car. A woman also is intelligent enough to know that even though her uterus can hold and bare children---it should not...because YOU'RE FUCKING 20 YEARS OLD. What's so hard to understand about: finish college, get a job, establish long term relationship, THEN marry. Can we all please stop and remember how old we are and what era this is? Sure as hell isn't the 1950s! At least there was long term dating in the 1950s!

Getting to know your partner is part of the process. If you met in person or online, there's no difference. It's the time spent together, learning about the stupid habits that bug the crap out of you and the awful smells/sounds that come out of that boyfriend of yours....yes, your boyfriend WILL fart on you (sorry but it happens, I've been drooled and farted on but I love him nonetheless). Anyways, it's the stupid annoying habits that help you decide whether this person is for you or not. Of course you love them, but after the honeymoon period (first 6 months) is over you may realize that the "love" may have just been obsession or infatuation....or you're crazy and just want everything right NOW.

Marriage is a decision to spend your life (forever) with your partner, aka til you're dead as a doornail in the ground. I hope you all think before you go through that Vegas drive-thru or back alley "ordained" minister. Take it through the seasons and see all the different sides of the person you love, it either destroys you or makes you love them more. Also note: the economy sucks, I hope the one you've chosen is a rich man.

Sincerely,
Someone who would like to see everyone at her 10 Year High School Reunion NOT divorced

This IS the Droid you're looking for

Alright, alright. I couldn't resist naming it something straight out of Star Wars, my inner geek wanted out on that one thing. But then I thought "hey, why not let the inner geek out for a bit for this blog?" And so, I did.

Oh Apple, how I love your MacBook Pro that I use, but I'm not an iPhone user. Though I may know a few people who have them, I don't really ever want an iPhone. Something I do want? The Motorolla DROID.

This thing is badass. Who wants an iPhone when you can have a DROID? This thing is ridiculous. My brother skipped into the room like a little kid on Christmas to show me the online video of it on engadget.com, which I suggest you watch to get a better understanding of how this phone works. But wait, you need to have Verizon. Sorry, ATT but your service sucks and you have the iPhone anyways. Sprint won't be getting this gem either, since they have every Blackberry ever made.

First off, this phone has the ability to do quite a few things that the iPhone can not. This is illustrated in the following commercial:



Fortunately the DROID can do all of these things. Impressive, yes? Quick summary!

DROID
1. Full QWERTY keyboard
2. Touchscreen front
3. Works as a GPS in the car
4. Shifts to an media center when docked----music, alarm clock
5. Runs multiple widget at the same time



I know that this Christmas will be a cheaper Christmas than most being that our economic climate is currently down. But the DROID offers a break from most expensive gifts during the holiday season. The DROID will be $199 with contract (likely to be a 2yr agreement like most Verizon plans), not bad. I expected a higher pricetag for this phone, thankfully I was surprised.

DROID goes on sale via Verizon online + Verizon store on November 6th 2009. Check it out now on engagdet.com: http://www.engadget.com/2009/10/28/motorola-droid-first-hands-on/

Book of Attention Whore: Chapter 1

This blog is titled Book of the Attention Whore for a reason. It is the first, of many likely "chapters" of what the attention whores in my life are doing. Somebody has to say something because it's fricken annoying. Let's starts with a definition from UrbanDictionary.com:

"A person who, regardless of whether or not they are attached, will seek out the attention of other males/females to make themself feel important. Usually found on internet forums and voice programs using whatever charms, bodily parts, etc. they may have to make themself appear more attractive to the opposite sex, even though it couldn't be farther from the truth. Some attention whores become agitated and intimidated when another member of the same sex garners more attention than themself and they become hostile and lash out. Will do almost anything to get the attention they seek including posing naked or half naked for pictures and posting them everywhere for all to see...and become increasingly sick to."

Today I logged onto my Facebook page after I got out of the shower. Just to check my wall for any comments or responses to the ridiculous crap that I post from time to time (funny videos or links). My news feed tells me who is at work, what girl misses her boyfriend, and how disappointed quite a few people are that the Angels lost the game last night. But low and behold there's a picture of someone's butt.

"Oh hello, someone's butt! Why are you on Facebook? We all know you're single and ready to mingle, but is this necessary?"

No it wasn't a bare ass, but it was a picture of an ass none-the-less. She was showing off new clothes, which seems innocent enough (though its not if you saw the actual picture). I read the comments. Of course there were a few innuendoes, and a sperm joke. I wonder if that makes her feel better about herself? Knowing that some guy friend would "hit that" or "superman dat ho", as his comment implied.

I don't see how a girl can just be like hmm let's throw my dignity out the window and take some pictures. "Check it out guys, I don't have a saggy butt! It's nice right? Now let me know all the dirty things you're thinking". That's the message it sends. There was another incident with an "ass posting" again this week but this time it was another girl with her friend.
This is your main picture? Really? Congrats, you've just made my blog. Yes I can post your stuff because its publicly displayed, sucks huh? You're a legal adult, I felt bad for all of 5 seconds. You posted it for all your friends to oogle at.

Book of Attention Whore, chapter 1: Post a picture of ur ass on Facebook to receive a multitude of lude comments/inuendos from male friends.

20 Life Lessons

Have you ever wanted to smack someone because they have dug themselves a hole? Gotten themselves into trouble when it was easy to avoid? I sure have! This list is compiled from real life experiences of the people we know and love. I hope you enjoy, and maybe add a few.

LIFE LESSONS WHICH WE ALL MUST OBSERVE:

1. Graduating high school doesn't make you smart. It just means you don't completely fail at life.

2. Date someone for at least a year before getting married. You don't know someone fully until you take it through the seasons, as my dad says.

3. Wen insulting some1 on the internet using bad propr gramar n spellin makes U look like a retard.

4. Always talking about yourself may impact your social life.

5. If you are a hefty person, don't wear mini skirts, or mini anything. Dress properly for your form.

6. Do not go work at a place like Hooter's without having Hooters. Otherwise, it's just wrong.

7. There is always a poor drunk girl at a party. Keep her away from men n pointy objects.

8. Don't walk home alone, no matter how "safe" your city is.

9. Crackheads carry knives. BIG knives.

10. If you need to throw up after drinking, do not do so into your wicker trash can.

11. Telling more than half our friends the same secret makes it public knowledge.

12. Bro kids in raised trucks are compensating for a lack of....well, they have a tiny penis.

13. This is very important---All naked pictures are leaked to the internet. ALL OF THEM.

14. Leaving a party with some guy you just met (while having or not having a boyfriend) is a bad idea. Nobody will believe that "nothing happened".

15. Don't try to convince girls with boyfriends that they are in love with you.

16. Walking alone at night in the bad end of town is a bad idea, even if you're "walking with Jesus". This won't stop you from being raped.

17. Losing your virginity should happen when both people have chosen to have sex, sober. So that both people may be able to recollect the event.

18. Throwing fireworks near your neighbor's boat = boat on fire + hefty bill.

19. Don't bring religious items or books to parties. It's pointless n you look like a zealous idiot.

20. Close the damn door when you pee. Just do it.

All of the above have been agreed upon by @beawarriorqueen and myself. I loved making this list, it was a good laugh remembering some of the stories in which they came from. For every "I told ya so" moment there's a lesson. Hopefully some people will be able to avoid those ridiculous mistakes. Do you have any to add?

Obsessive Compulsive 1231

"Obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD) is a mental disorder characterized by intrusive thoughts that produce anxiety, by repetitive behaviors aimed at reducing anxiety, or by combinations of such thoughts (obsessions) and behaviors (compulsions). The symptoms of this anxiety disorder range from repetitive hand-washing and extensive hoarding to preoccupation with sexual, religious, or aggressive impulses."

I have OCD. I know I do and don't need a doctor to diagnose me. He'll just want to give me medication for it, which I do not need. I have it under control and it doesn't usually interfere with my life. My mom said that I was "so OCD" about things a few years back, so I looked into it and discovered that it described the exact way I felt. Self-diagnosis isn't appropriate for most mental disorders like depression or bipolarity. If you think you have either of those go to the doctor because they can help you. But in my case, I don't believe that I need to take medicine every day for this.

Every OCD person has certain behavioral habits, mine are typical things. Like counting how many times I touch things or having to straighten everything. Lids need to be a certain way on containers. I have to shake my soy milk and orange juice cartons before placing them back inside the fridge. I have a million little things.

Right now I'm typing a sentence and I'll probably erase half of it and re-type it again. Sometimes I do this more than once. It irritates me but I have to do it. If I don't then I feel like something bad will happen. Sometimes I try not to do my stupid OCD habits but I fail because of this:

"While some with OCD perform compulsive rituals because they inexplicably feel they must, others act compulsively so as to mitigate the anxiety that stems from particular obsessive thoughts. The sufferer might feel that these actions somehow either will prevent a dreaded event from occurring, or will push the event from their thoughts."

Picture frames must be straight, misspelled words re-typed. All light switches need to be touched 4 times. I have to click my blinker in the car twice before turning. My counting usually is "1...2...3.....1", which is essentially 4, but I stick with the number 3 for some reason. Whatever I'm fixing, I must touch it 1...2.....3.....1, if I do not touch the object the right way the n I have to do it again till it's right. I do this with all of my habitual compulsions, "1...2...3....1". This became especially irritating to me when I went to the gym to work out.

Sometimes I think that people might notice my little habits but they don't until I get frustrated and draw attention to it. Like for example when I'm PMSing it gets especially worse. I can say that more than a few times I've not been able to empty the dishwasher because I've burst into tears out of frustration. The plates weren't dry enough yet or they were too out of order that I couldn't look at them. That's my main way of trying to avoid the OCD things I do. By not looking at them. I tell myself, "turn around and walk the other way before you look like a physcopath trying to fix all the shelves at Target".

Compulsions---

"OCD sufferers are aware that their thoughts and behavior are not rational, but they feel bound to comply with them in order to fend off feelings of panic or dread."

I'm aware of it, and that's the worst part. I know I don't need to count things or touch the doorknob and the light switch at the same time. But I do it anyways because it makes me feel better. In the past my friends and boyfriend have done little things to irritate my OCD like turning my picture frames sideways or moving things around so they could watch me fix them for entertainment. Of course I had to fix these things before something bad would happen. In most cases, my anxiety tends to be based off of fear that harm would come to my family or boyfriend. Otherwise, it makes me feel tense and I have to perform the task to feel relief.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not crazy and tortured. It's bothersome at times but its not taking me away from school, social settings, or life. I know there are people out there who have this mental disorder worse than me. That sounds so bad to me, "mental disorder". Really some people find it to be a good trait. Like my boyfriend likes how I tend to randomly clean his room out of compulsion. It can be handy and annoying.

I need to stop typing now before I re-type this sentence too.....too late. See you guys later.

I'm Not Crying, It's From My Eye Drops!

I was reading through a few of my old blogs via MySpace. I vividly remember writing out the blog from "April 15th 2008" in fact. My subject? Pink eye.

I'm not sure why but I'm prone to basically the same 5 recurring sicknesses throughout the year. Sinus infections, pharyngitis (it's the same as laryngitis but on the opposite side of your throat fyi), UTI's, pink eye, and ear infections. I suppose I'm lucky enough to avoid getting illnesses like the flu but still, these ones are pretty annoying if you ask me.

My dog just burped....fun fact. How adorable. We had pizza for dinner.

But anyways, my rotating illnesses suck. Especially the pink eye, I'd say its one of the most irritating things you can have go wrong. Why?

Pink eye, aka "conjunctivitis" sucks because...

1. You have to throw away all your make-up so you don't re-infect yourself. Make-up isn't usually cheap (depending on your preference) and it sucks to throw your favorites colors of eye shadow away--because that's always the one you use right as you get pink eye.
2. No wearing make-up. I don't have a problem with wearing no make-up when I leave the house but some girls rather cut an arm off.
3. Blood-shot eyes. You look high ALL THE TIME! I met my friend Nura's church group for the first time and I got alot of weird looks because of my eyes. So awkward.
4. The "Don't Touch Me" effect. You can spread it to anyone just by touching them. Boyfriends hate pink eye, so does your mother. So get some hand sanitizer and sit a few feet away from everyone else.
5. "How did you get poo in your eye?" This is the most irritating part. Someone smarta** always has to bring up the fact that pink eye is caused by fecal matter getting into your eye.

Urbandictionary.com defines pink eye as: "When someone farts in your face, causing poop articles to enter the eye, making it go pink"

The eye drops--which nobody enjoys---can be painful if you've got a nasty case like I did. Here's what I thought at the time.

"I got my eyes numbed n the doctor put this stuff in that made my vision all tinted yellow. Yeaaa, this was bizarre since I had no idea what this guy was tryin to look for or do. Of coarse he pulls out a black light n starts screwing with my eyes by holding them open [which I couldn't feel at all]. He finally rinsed my eyes so it wasn't yellow anymore though still numb, told us that since it hadn't gone away with the first prescription we had to get new $70 prescription eye-drops that BURN WHEN YOU PUT THEM IN. Great, buddy. Thanks, not only do my eyes itch n can't focus very well, but you're telling me that every 4 hours I have to put drops in my eyes that will burn---awesome."

Wooo I was so excited for those burning drops. You could feel them working, so much so that it was like it was setting every germ and every memory of a previous germ on fire. I think that most girls freak out about getting pink eye because of the make-up issue. Alot of people rely on make-up to "make" themselve pretty, or give them confidence.

"I havent been able to wear any make-up whatsoever since I got pink-eye. Luckily, I don't look like a completely different person without make-up like some people do....I hate it when girls think they have to wear make-up allllll the time. It's stupid n bad for your skin anyways. LOL it's hilarious when they go to the beach n freak out cuz it's running or it smeared or came off. I mean come on, dumbasses. If your face is a different color than your neck, there's something wrong haha. I've heard the name "cake face" used by alot of guys to describe some girls. Yay for not being one of those lol. I like knowing that my boyfriend thinks I'm pretty even without make-up on."

I love the fact that I have a boyfriend who still finds me attractive when I have a clean face. He likes when I have it on obviously but its not like I'm suddenly a hideous alien if I wipe it off. I don't need to "put on my face" every morning.

Well that's all for now. Perhaps I'll write again in a few days :] I better get off to bed so I can avoid the swine flu haha---yeaaaa right. Goodnight world, I hope you all are well.

Let's Be Rebels!

I don't often hear things like this from men, so I thought I'd share. Of course I was bored at the time, wandering youtube.com when I came across this comment:

"The human body is potentially perfect. It is our weakness that necessitates the use of drugs. The true rebels in music today will be drug, tat, and piercing free. Married, and lead noble lives with great discipline" - EdenTheoryRocks

It makes me think about how everyone young nowadays has to cling to something. Usually its drugs, which is sad. I've witnessed this countless times. I had a close friend go away to rehab and return only to relapse and not care. Disappointing to say the least. I watched my friends smoke pot and thought to myself, "how is that fun?" Then suddenly we all had to get in the car and go to Taco Bell because it was "bomb". I don't think I will ever understand why that word is used to describe food being good....it means explosion for godsake.

But what else are the girls and guys of our generation holding onto? I'd have say mommy and daddy issues. It's assumed that rebelling and causing our parents pain will make us feel better. I love my parents and have never seen the need to do this. I like having my parents trust me.

Why do we need to rebel from our parents? Is it even necessary? They did it too ya know, from their parents. Its just another endless cycle. "Let's do drugs! Let's have sex! I'll get my attention this way!" So you think your daddy didn't love you, and now you're in the car driving to get your 5th tattoo? Yea I know girls like that. Sadly I'm older than them. I know it'll turn into a nasty reminder in a few years once they aren't little stick figure girls anymore. The sad fact is that tattoos are there forever. UNLESS you pay out the a** to get it removed, slowly and painfully lazered off.

Some people just need to remember that their parents love them, and if they don't then someone does. When life gives you a sh**ty family, it gives you great friends. I consider myself lucky enough to have both amazing friends and parents. Someone out there does care about you, so don't be so fast to throw yourself down the metaphorical/theoretical stairs. Self-destructive behavior never helped anyone do anything.

I could go on for days about how the decisions we all make now really do affect us later. But I won't because nobody wants to read bitching about druggies and skanky girls. It's a known fact to most of my friends that I can't stand hanging out with or around girls (usually, but there are exceptions). I'm easily irritated by the attention seeking behavior that they project.

So what do you think? Do you think that getting that tattoo or doing drugs is gunna make you feel less angsty?
Probably not, but you're too young to care right? Too bad not thinking now will lead to......well you can find out for yourself. There's a consequence for every decision you make, so make smart ones. Don't just jump on the bandwagon. And by bandwagon I mean, don't go do drugs because you hear that "it's cool". Avoid the Hedonistic lifestyle, all that comes of it is emptiness and a few likely STDs. Look before you leap, think before you speak.

Thank you Incubus for stating it so well:
"The consequence is a bigger word than you think" - Consequence (album - A Crow Left of the Murder)

Time Change (guest blogger)

This was my first guest spot, and hopefully not my last for @beawarriorqueen's blog. I hope you enjoy it. She introduces it as a response to the big decisions and changes that are taking place right now.

We may only be 20 years old but there's some people who are getting married or having children!
:]

Did you ever have that original group of girls in junior high or high school that you spent all your time with? Boys were stupid so you had to stick together. Each had their personality. The soccer player; the church girl; the one who has to be the center of attention; the pretty one; the rich one; and the awkward nerdy two that stuck together more than the rest.
Yea, I was one of the awkward two. There wasn't really much of an option for me to escape it. Three years of braces, and hitting puberty -- later I was called the whore--though I'd done nothing to warrant being called "whore" except to have boobs that the others didn't. I can laugh about it now because at the time I'd been convinced I would be awkward, flat, and probably alone forever. But life, and puberty, said otherwise.
After time passed, we all went our separate ways. Some of us lost touch, others just didn't seem to care. There were bigger and better things ahead. Things that most of us didn't ever see coming until they happened. Break ups, fights, and relationships dashed on the rocks. It seemed that the only relationship that remained after all was said and done by the end of high school, was that my best friend and I – the other awkward nerdy one – were the only ones that had survived all the way through. The rich one moved up in the social order of high school (we didn't like that too much). When your friend walks past you with everyone else like you're invisible it hurts. The church girl went away to college far away where we still miss her a lot. The center of attention, well most of us had lost touch with her by the time college started. She's now getting married, which threw me off by how unexpected it was to hear. But I'm really happy she's found her man, he seems really nice.
This is such a strange period of life. From age 19-21, so much changes. Your friends go away or stay close for college. Work schedules clash and impact whether you ever get to see your friends. And after not seeing them for awhile things happen. Things? People get engaged, people make life decisions, people join the military. How do you react? The one getting engaged, upon first hearing that my old friend was getting married--I thought, "wow when we made our predictions she was so close to the bottom of our "who will get married first? list". I am a little jealous....being that I have my own romantic relationship going on. And this isn't like oh hey there we're dating, we've been together twice as long as the couple whose getting hitched this next year.
A little piece of me says it's not the right time and I know this very well but the other side says, "Why aren't I the first one? Why isn't this happening to me? Will it happen to me? How long do I have to wait?" I know I'm young, I'm poor, and have to wait. It'll be worth it when it does happen. No sense in hurrying, I'm only 20. Yet still, it's weird. I know I won't be attending the wedding being that we're no longer close friends, but I'll see the pictures afterward. They'll be smiling, and I can click the "like" button or leave a comment to say congratulations!
I'll just conclude my ramblings with this.
We all were so close before, years before, then life happened. Why are my relationships with other women always so difficult to keep up with? I guess that's why I shifted to being "one of the guys". It was easier, it was less drama. There was no more arguments over who liked who, or jealousy of what the other was wearing, no competition. But in the end, I look back and still see those original girls that I sat at lunch with my freshman year. All of us were so young, I looked like a 12 year old for crying out loud! Now, I'm just curious to see who will be next. Who will be the first one to have a baby? Generally the married ones are at the top of the list for babies, but you never know. Life sure likes to surprise you, doesn't it?

Vents Release Pressure

This is where I will release my thoughts and feelings about all kinds of topics.
Let's see how this goes, alright?
I call it "The Beach Vent" because without a vent, I might explode.

"When we long for a life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure" - Peter Marshall, tv host.