Birthers

If the President was a white man just like the previous ones, then nobody would be asking for his birth certificate. Fact.
Racism still exists, also a fact.
Get off your high horse with your pointing fingers and vote Obama out of office during the next election if you're so upset. That's what elections are for after all.
Assholes.

12th Birthday

I had quite a moment earlier today. Evan n me were about to take the dog on a walk. I stood by the sink, making a sandwich before leaving. He suggested that we not go all the way to the park. I felt myself turn red and my face scrunch up. My stomach sank into my feet. It's rare that I ever lose myself to my emotions. I burst into tears in fear of losing my dog. She turns 12 years old this year, and despite her always being a good happy dog....she is getting old.
I can't imagine her not being around. I can't imagine being able to ever replace her, but no one and no being lives forever. In another dimension I hope that there's pets that live as long as their masters. Because we don't get to have that luxury but I think someone out there should for the rest of our sakes.
Hip displasia, arthritis, allergies. Pills and peanut butter twice a day. Sometimes she stumbles or needs help to get her back legs up the steps. It endlessly worries me. My eyes water just thinking about it. Doggie is my sibling, my baby, my friend. How could anyone live without that companion? It's just so difficult to watch someone you love get old, human or furry friend. I pray I can continue to have a few more years :)
--Courtney

Gym Equipment

I had a thought earlier at the gym today. Not necessarily regarding anything fitness or sport related, but one of the individual. What do people think about when they're trapped on the treadmill/elliptical/etc? Maybe they run off to LaLa Land for distraction or simply watch the tv in front of them. The iPod music only distracts you for so long before it just becomes a beat to pace yourself to. It's always strange how my mind wanders in order to cope with working out. It can go anywhere from "just concentrate on the picture on the wall" to "pretend you're in a race with all these other people."
I hate the urge to look over at other people. It makes me feel awkward when others do it to me. Almost like asking someone how they did on their test really. This spawns the need to compare yourself to them.....perhaps I could say that we all have moments of reverting to selfish childhood here.
Comparing, imagioning, wandering. We're all in the same place but not talking to each other and avoiding eye contact. Looking someone in the eye is too personal here, not sure why. Probably because you're sweaty and don't want the attention drawn to how your shirt looks wet or your makeup has run just enough to make you look exhausted.
I could imagine that depending on the gym-goer, their thoughts may wander in different directions than mine. The musclehead guy, the OC housewife prancing around, the heavy guy working his ass off, tiny asian woman, etc. All could have drastically different scenarios playing out as they work out.
Add needing to wear glasses into this equation and it becomes stranger. I don't work out with them on so my vision becomes a pitfall. At times I end up trying to figure out what the closed captioning on the big tv's are saying. That's a doomed battle for me haha. Reading the other guy's shirt is hard enough! The worst is recognizing people at the gym--or them recognizing me rather. I can't see the detail of someone's face til they're 4 feet away.
Anyways, it's been a long day. Goodnight.

Creds

No, not like 'street cred'---credentials. I've toyed with the idea of getting teaching credentials. It's difficult to narrow down my future job to anything specific. Yes, I enjoy my major right now n its academically satisfying. Learning things of my interest is easier to write about, discuss, etc. I'd love to get a job that uses it but I'm not sure what to do with it.
Should I decide to go after teaching credentials? I still haven't nailed that one down yet. It's an ok option but I do take issue with a few aspects of the teaching profession. For one, it'd require more time and money invested in school. The pay would't be 'good' til I were to reach the university level, unless I were to work at a private school and publish from time to time. Especially now it's a hard to imagine becoming a teacher with the economic climate and the shape of our edecational system.
If life were easy, there would be an easy answer for 'what do you want to do after college?'
---Courtney

Yelling into the Void

At times you can feel like your voice doesn't go very far. You can post on your Facebook page or tweet via Twitter. Into an abyss of words, pictures, etc. It seems to be such a mess to sort through. Then once you get a response or two, you feel you're not alone in a belief or conversation. A feeling of satisfaction sets in. But once it becomes a wave of 200 people, it's a little overwhelming.
I'd never experienced that until tonight when I casualy checked my Twitter app on my phone. And whatta ya know! There's people reposting my super lame pun of all things. I somehow gained 200 new followers and had my joke 'retweeted' about 500 times, making it a "Top Tweet".
I pat myself on the back for a second and then move on...because I know it's not of importance in the real world. Today was a good day, and hopefully your day was just as good.
---Courtney

Establishing 'Thoughts via Cell' posts

Sometimes I want to tweet a complete thought but find that having only 140 characters of room to be insufficient to even spell out the words correctly. And so, I've downloaded the Blogger application for my phone. Hopefully this will lead me to post more frequently as to no have my thoughts build up; whether of frustration or happiness. You know how it can be--you come across something or hear a person say something that just sets off a chain reaction inside. Let's see then. I aim to post at least weekly.
First off, I just started reading "Always On" for my American Studies 101 class even though the reading hasn't been assigned to be completed for another 2 weeks. The topic of digital communication is one of interest to me. I'm fascinated by how some have applauded or critiqued it in its effects on language n social interaction. Currently I've read as far as Chapter 2 so I think reporting in with somewhat of a response after a bit more would be logical.
Alrighty, good post. Let's hope I can stick with it. Have a lovely....morning? It is 2am after all.
--Courtney